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Draupadi – Dishonored Yet Honorable

by Chaitanya Caran Prabhu 

Draupadi’s admirable character is revealed in the most humiliating incident of her life: her attempted disrobing by the wicked Dushasana. Though victimized in body, she refuses to be victimized in heart. Her exceptional character transforms the lowest point in her life into the highest point. The incident in which she is the most dishonored, she emerges as the most honorable.Victim of power play On that fateful day, she has just taken a ritual bath. As per a purificatory tradition, she is wearing a long single cloth – a kind of sari – for a specified period before putting on her ornate royal garments as the chief queen of the reigning monarch, Yudhishthira. Unknown to her, he has, in a rigged gambling match, lost everything: his property, his brothers, himself and finally her. As per the terms of the gambling match, they all have now become slaves of the Kauravas.After the Kauravas win Draupadi, the jeering Karna suggests that she be summoned to the assembly and disrobed publicly as she is now the Kauravas’ slave, bound to do their bidding. The reprehensible scheme to disrobe her was driven not just by lust but also by hunger for power – the Kauravas saw Draupadi less as a person and more as a tool to demean the Pandavas. Their mentality is marked through and through by objectification of women.They order a court messenger to summon Draupadi. The messenger goes to her chamber and informs her about all that has transpired in the assembly. She is appalled, but quickly pulls herself together and comes up with a strategy to buy time. She tells the messenger to ask the assembly whether she had actually been lost when Yudhishthira had already gambled and lost himself – when he was not his own master, was he her master to have gambled her? Draupadi is holding on to straw and she probably knows it. But when straw is all there is to hold on to, it needs to be held on to firmly.That Yudhishthira gambled Draupadi might suggest that he too treated women as property, thus objectifying them. But the sequence of events reveals a more nuanced reality. Yudhishthira gambles her after he has gambled himself, whereas he gambles all his property before. So, even if Draupadi is considered his property, she is categorically higher than the rest of his property – for him, she is more precious than himself. She is his property in the sense of ‘belonging,’ as used when a lover says to the beloved: "You belong to me." Such an assertion makes the beloved feel valued, cherished, treasured. When the messenger conveys Draupadi’s question to the assembly, the Kauravas demand that she come and ask it herself. The messenger returns to Draupadi, but she sends him back asking whether the righteous assembly had actually summoned her, a chaste woman, to appear in public in her present condition when she is dressed in a single cloth. The evil-minded Duryodhana can’t wait to humiliate the Pandavas, so he tells his brother Dushasana to bring her immediately to the court. That vile warrior strides to her chamber and pounces on her. Screaming for help, she tries to run to the chambers of Gandhari, the Kauravas’ mother, who might be able to stop her son. But Dushasana catches her by her hair, drags her to the assembly and hurls her to the ground in the middle of the hall. Technicality and travesty Though disheveled and distraught, Draupadi rises, offers her respect to the assembly and requests that they answer her question. The blind king Dhritarashtra remains silent. So, the responsibility to answer falls on the eldest member of the assembly, the grandsire Bhishma. He states that two principles are pertinent: a wife always belongs to her husband, whereas nothing belongs to a slave. He confesses his inability to decide which of the two principles merits precedence in this circumstance.No one in the assembly offers any other opinion except Vidura, the half-brother of Dhritarashtra. But Duryodhana has made a habit of neglecting his uncle’s wise counsel – and this occasion is no exception. The whole assembly gets caught in a technicality about dharma and ends up condoning a travesty of dharma. The bhakti tradition calls such an error niyamaagraha – sticking to the letter of the law while neglecting its spirit. The real issue was not whether a woman belonged to her husband or not; it was whether the assembly didn’t find anything wrong with such egregious dishonoring of a virtuous woman. Duryodhana, enjoying the Pandavas’ discomfiture, tries to pit wife against husband. He announces that if Draupadi admits that dharma-raja Yudhishthira had violated dharma by gambling her, he would release all the Pandavas. Shrewdly, Draupadi rejects his bait. She refuses to cast any blame on her husband, not because she is blind to his mistake, but because she is honorable enough to publically stand by her loved ones, even when they have committed a terrible mistake – all the more so when they are remorseful, as Yudhisthira so clearly was. Just because we are let down by others doesn't mean that we have to let them down.She responds that if Yudhishthira had had the choice, he wouldn’t have gambled at all – he had gambled only because of the instruction of his elders. The onus was on those elders to decide what was right.The dishonoring of Draupadi is so heinous that it triggers dissension in the Kaurava camp. One of Duryodhana’s brothers, Vikarna, rises and urges the assembly to answer her question. When he is answered with silence, he offers his own opinion, pointing out several improprieties in the gambling match. Firstly, Yudhishthira had been pitted against a trained gamester – this invalidated the match right from the beginning. Secondly, he had gambled unwillingly, been compelled by his elders’ instruction. Thirdly, he had been goaded to keep gambling far beyond civilized limits – things done under the spell of gambling shouldn’t be taken seriously among relatives. And he had lost himself first, so he was in no position to stake Draupadi. The assembly applauds Vikarna, but Karna waving his huge shoulders silences everyone. He mocks Vikarna, labeling him immature and ignorant of morality. Rather than rationally refute Vikarna, Karna inexplicably chooses to fight dirty – he justifies the atrocious dishonoring of Draupadi by assassinating her character. Deeming her a prostitute for having married five men, he argues that there was nothing wrong in publically dragging and disrobing such a dishonorable woman.This grievous slur on Draupadi’s character was entirely unjustified. Though polyandry was rare, it had scriptural and historical precedents. Additionally, in Draupadi’s specific case, she hadn’t done anything objectionable to get five husbands – she had simply accepted the decision of her elders. Sages of the caliber of Vyasa and Narada had sanctioned it, declaring that the great god, Shiva, ordained it. In no way was such polyandry comparable to prostitution. For his mendacious and malicious insult to an honorable woman, Karna deserves the strongest censure.The inexhaustible robe and the exhausted disroberWith Vikarna silenced by Karna, Duryodhana asks Dushasana to strip Draupadi. Crying in mortification, she holds on to her sari desperately. But she is no match to that huge brute. Finally, she raises her hands in fervent supplication to her Lord, Krishna, and begs him to rescue her from sinking in the Kaurava ocean. By Krishna’s mystic power, her sari becomes endless. Dushasana keeps pulling and pulling and pulling, but to no avail. He gets exhausted, but her sari remains inexhaustible. The whole assembly applauds Draupadi's virtuousness that has attracted such supernatural protection – and censures the Kauravas for attempting to dishonor her.This incident of Draupadi’s honor being protected by Krishna incarnating as her endless sari has been immortalized in the bhakti tradition through architecture and literature, poetry and imagery, prayer and song. Krishna’s supernatural intervention is significant, but it shouldn’t detract from Draupadi’s strength of character. That remarkable strength comes from her spirituality, her pure devotion to Krishna. And her foundational spirituality finds its culminational expression in her helpless prayer to Krishna and his miraculous reciprocation. Significantly, the miracle doesn’t slow the Mahabharata’s narrative. Its focus remains on discerning dharma, and dharma centers on human actions, not divine interventions.Unsurprisingly, the adharmic Kauravas aren’t fazed by the miracle. Their inability to disrobe Draupadi doesn't make them rethink their maliciousness; it just makes them suspend their intention to disrobe her. Rather than recognizing that they are doing something dastardly that has caused higher powers to stop them, they decide to continue their humiliation campaign in another way – they declare that Draupadi should be sent to the maids’ quarters and taught to sweep their palace.  Bald lies and salted wounds Meanwhile, several inauspicious omens occur. Vidura warns Dhritarashtra that such omens portend the destruction of the Kuru dynasty and implores him to stop the adharma that is provoking these omens as reactions. The king is jolted out of his stupor on hearing that his sacrificial fire, which he had kept lit throughout his life, has gone off. Coming to his senses, he attempts to minimize the damage. He lauds Draupadi for her chastity and courage, and tries to mitigate the Pandavas’ silent fury by mouthing sweet words. The baldness of his lies would have provoked laughter had the situation not evoked such horror. He says that he had called the gambling match just to test the skills of the two cousins. The question begs itself: How was the Kauravas’ skill tested by having Shakuni gamble on their behalf? The situation was like that of a person who invites someone to a friendly boxing match and then has Mike Tyson play in his stead – and play with a win-at-all-costs, take-no-prisoners mindset.Dhritarashtra tells Draupadi to ask for some boon. She asks for the release of her husband – not Arjuna who had won her, but Yudhishthira who had lost her.Even in the closest of relationships, we all sometimes commit mistakes, and most of us do have conscience that makes us feel bad when we act harshly. That pinch of conscience is a burning wound for sensitive people, enough to impel them towards self-correction. When we have hurt someone, we often feel regretful and repentant. But when the hurt person hits back at us with harsh words, those words frequently become like salt on the wound of our self-recrimination. The aggravated sting can change our attitude from self-corrective to ultra-defensive, thereby worsening the situation. Such aggravation of the situation can be prevented if the hurt person resists the urge to hit back. But controlling one’s pain and anger requires great fortitude. Exhibiting such fortitude, Draupadi resists the temptation to put any salt on Yudhishthira’s wounds. Instead, by asking that he be released, she helps the mortified king regain his dignity.Dhritarashtra tells Draupadi to ask for some other benediction. She asks that all her husbands be released along with their weapons, adding that they don’t need anything more – with their weapons alone, her husbands will regain everything else. The king says that he is not satisfied and tells her to ask for more benedictions. Draupadi declines, quoting an ancient standard that forbids kshatriya women from asking more than two benedictions. The king in a rare display of magnanimity returns the Pandavas everything they had lost. (Later, they are recalled for another rigged gambling match on losing which they are exiled to the forest.)The virtuous turns villainous Karna can't tolerate this foiling of the scheme to dishonor the Pandavas. The moment when the Pandavas regain what they have lost is Draupadi's one moment of dignity in a nightmare of indignity. And yet Karna cannot let her have even that much relief. He can't resist taking a potshot at the Pandavas: Just see these warriors who were saved by a woman!In this incident, Draupadi emerges the brightest character. The character who emerges the darkest is not Dushasana, although he gets immortalized infamously as Draupadi’s disrober. The darkest character is not Duryodhana, whose exposing his bare thigh to Draupadi eventually leads to his death through the breaking of that very thigh by Bhima. The character who emerges the darkest is Karna not because his behavior is so reprehensible, but because such behavior is so shockingly out-of-character for him. To his credit, he regrets his actions, as he admits in the Mahabharata while speaking to Krishna and then to Bhishma. In contrast, Dushasana and Duryodhana never regret their vile deeds – their only regret is that they couldn’t dishonor the Pandavas more. Just as in the Ramayana Kaikeyi acts reprehensibly due to Manthara's association, so too in the Mahabharata Karna acts reprehensibly by Duryodhana's association, being driven by the desire to please that debauched prince. A spine of steel In this incident, Krishna’s protecting Draupadi is often highlighted. An equally, if not more, important feature is Draupadi’s consistent strength of character. Within her female form runs a spine of steel that stands erect throughout. And that steely resolve is relevant and instructive for us. When the world subjects us to indignity, we may not be the beneficiaries of miraculous rescues, but we can still cultivate a steely resolve. Such inner strength is something that all women – and indeed all of us – can aspire for, no matter what indignity the world subjects us to.Today when systems for the protection of women are often found to be distressingly inadequate, this ancient incident when the system utterly fell apart speaks to all of us. Draupadi reveals the strength that comes from one's innate dignity, by sheltering one's identity not in one's femininity, but in one's spirituality. Who can not admire such character and admire the character with such character?  

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Beyond Border Control/Mind Control

-by Pranada Comtois

The youth clad in hiking boots and jeans hoisted his back pack over his shoulder and hurried out in front of me. Swinging my head to the side to avoid the brusque movement of his pack, I slowed my step to give way to his determination.Perhaps he knew what to expect: clearing US customs takes time. He was making sure to be in front of the 200+ passengers deplaning in Atlanta from Costa Rica.We arrived into a mile-long hall to Passport Control forming a single-file snaking line of hundreds of passengers. I was peaceful listening to a kirtan. Then I noticed how unhappy people seemed, which struck me since I was feeling joy.I thought, Maybe chanting the maha-mantra every day has helped me gain patience and peace that doesn’t come easy for others.Curious, I became attentive to individuals as they rounded the corner and saw the length of the line. Dread, agitation, and concern showed in their faces. The longer we stood still the more I heard rumbles of unrest.I stood nibbling on dinner until the line reached an area filled with multiple rows of automated kiosks. We scanned our passports, answered questions, then had a picture taken, which was printed out on a piece of paper the size of a boarding pass. Several people repeatedly commented on how awful they looked in their photo.The unhappiness of the wait and ugly pictures is unnecessary if they simply checked negative thoughts. Notice this, Pranada. Commit to changing all traces of your own mental negativity.Our lives are lived in our minds. Factually, our mind dictates our state of being.If I don’t like being unhappy, I don’t need to focus on the length of the line, I could be thankful we landed safely (the plane had touched down so hard that people were jostled in their seats. Many screamed; I had said “Krishna!”).Now I was listening to transcendental sounds; I had packed a healthy meal; I was on my way home . . . I kept finding more reasons why the moment was utterly precious and I smiled.Once past Customs we headed, not to our connecting flights, but to a TSA security checkpoint. This line was seriously long. Now people’s faces were more than gloomy and agitated.Out of hundreds of people only one young couple was jolly and bantered. Perhaps the newness of their union buoyed their spirits. Their silliness was also an external manifestation of their mind’s playground.I began to wonder what it would be like if I was with this large group of people during a catastrophe. What would happen to our decorum-veneer if our mettle was really tested? How would we fair at the most demanding checkpoint, death?If not border control, or control by work, a spouse, money, event or other person/circumstance, we’re controlled unequivocally by Time.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]We’re not controllers. When we accept this, we have an opportunity to practice patience and humility which strengthen our ability to control the mind.[/perfectpullquote]For we must stand in line; we must wait; we must accept what is; we must die.We can note, though, that while perfectly restraining the mind can give us peace, it doesn’t allow us to transcend the mind (or body) which is the root cause of our suffering and insecurity. Nor is it by mind control alone that we’re able to pass through the border at the edge of the multiverses beyond the time-space barrier. Another type of qualification is needed.Entry into the superior nature is simple: Arrive as a lover.Proceed as your self, disentangled from identification with the temporal material mind-body. This is possible through a spiritual practice that is ego-effacing. Reach there with full spiritual rapture for your Divine Significant Other.* The force of your transcendental passion is the passport required.Bhakti is the East’s path that promises the charming objectives of becoming a lover and perpetually free from borders. Additionally, it’s ego-effacing practice—unlike most paths—is easy and sweet.For centuries, saints, seers, mystics, sages, and ordinary practitioners have validated the efficacy of Bhakti’s mantra meditation kirtan (group singing of Krishna’s holy names) and japa (individual chanting).Chanting the names is a potent form of dialogue. In a conversation there is an exchange of ideas and sharing of personal interests. When our discussion is with an extraordinary person, our communication stirs feelings of appreciation, and often gratitude. And when our connection is deep and abiding those feelings mature into love.Bhakti encourages, Sing and chant your way to wise-love.Taking daily time to free the encaged self from ancient patterns is worth every minute and the inevitable inconveniences are no aggravations at all.May you be free to pass beyond all borders,Pranada*The five spiritual moods (rasas) parallel the five primary types of loving exchanges in human experience. The relationships of the self with the Divine are reverential/passive love (shanta), subservient love (dasya), friendship/mutual love (sakhya) , nurturing/parental love (vatsalya), and intimate, passionate love (madhurya).


Pranada Comtois is a devoted pilgrim, teacher, and author of Wise-Love: Bhakti and the Search for the Soul of Consciousness, which has received four industry awards in spirituality and body/mind/spirit. She is a featured speaker in the film “Women of Bhakti.”  

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Living In The Season: Late Winter

My sister, Susan, is a Five Elements acupuncturist. She and her artist husband, George, live in Central Coastal Maine. Living, as they do, so close to Nature and her changing seasons is always an example to me, as I live my life as a much more urban person. Susan's meditations on the changing seasons have been a highlight of our Urban Devi conversation. ~ Rukmini Walker

--by Susan Weiser Mason“Late Winter is a song of longing, with a slow beat and no melody.”
The eagles are in Damariscotta Mills and hopefully sitting on their eggs through the inevitable March blizzard. I have already visited my go-to south facing ridge to see if snow drops have begun to emerge. Not yet. They have sprung up as early as February 24th in the past. The earth is opening up with the sun higher in the sky even as snow covers the ground and temperatures plummet at night.
In acupuncture, Winter is associated with dormancy. Yet mysteriously, during this season the reservoir gets replenished. So there must be activity within this ‘still time’. A few days ago I could feel that energy with the thaw at work both within the earth and within my chest. It was palpable and nearly made me weep. Something had released. A gate had opened. Suddenly hopefulness and buoyancy flooded through every cell in my body.
Late Winter is full of anticipatory pleasure. It never occurred to me until now, that the act of anticipating Spring might be an essential winter medicine and part of the chemistry of renewal.Where does Spring come from? It’s not some visitor that drives into town. Spring lives within every organism, needing only a prompt to awaken. Sunlight returns and activates the inborn chorus that is so ready to sing.If I only look for what I expect to find in this season, I must rely on memory and make comparisons. What is far more thrilling is to pay attention to the quickening going on within my own body as the preamble to Spring starts to wake me up. That is utterly fresh! It is the Spring within me, and not some external event I observe as separate from myselfAttention may be the most basic form of love, as it allows me to be deeply reassured by the energetic cycle of the seasons. Consider for instance how death is implicit when the leaves fall and the tree lets go into the arms of Winter, only to become home to a marvelous gestation culminating in the rebirth of Spring.Winter is like the Sabbath; the day God rests. We pause out of deference. We accept being subject to a cycle greater than ourselves. In that same way we can surrender to Winter and offer ourselves as a prayer and a promise kept. By late Winter most of us are on our knees. We’ve been stretched and undone, and are in need of relief. We’ve weathered the dark time in order to be reborn. It has been exhausting but the coming of Spring will be breathtaking!  Apparently, being wrung out is not at odds with the promise of renewal. The only caveat might be if we totally ignore Winter’s invitation to rest, and just keep running as though there is only endless Summer. We may not choose Winter, but we live in a place where Winter’s initiation is part of the package. So even if we complain, most of us could not imagine living without it.
Susan Weiser Mason and Traditional Acupuncture are located in Damariscotta Mills / Nobleboro. She has been practicing since 1986.
For more information go to www.susanacupuncture.com or call
207-563-1571.
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A Possible Alternative for Ayodhya?

--by Rukmini Walker

This week The Times of India’s headline story was that the Indian Supreme Court has decided to send the 70 year old Babri Masjid Ayodhya litigation case to mediation. This is a very wise decision on their part.I’m reminded of the biblical story of King Solomon. Two different women were both claiming to be the mother of one baby. How could such a difficult case be decided? The wise king suggested that they cut the baby in half, and give each mother one half of the baby. The actual mother, out of her genuine love for her child, cried out, “No! Let her keep the baby! But just let the baby live!”I am an American woman, who has a great regard for India both her culture and her many religions. I’ve been a practitioner of Bhakti Yoga for more than half my life. This past week, I’ve been a delegate at an international conference honoring Mata Sitadevi in the holy city of Varanasi.India has always been revered by the rest of the world as the Land of Dharma. Traditionally, as a place of great religious tolerance where so many religions of the world have found a hospitable home. Often when even their own places of origin are no longer hospitable to them. India’s great long standing tradition now stands in jeopardy. In order to satisfy all parties, this sacred 2.77 acres of land will somehow have to be divided into tiny parcels. The mediators will have to be as wise as King Solomon! How will it be possible to satisfy everyone?May I offer one tiny, humble suggestion? As the little spider in the Ramayana tried her best to kick up a few grains of sand to help the great Bhakta Hanuman build the bridge to Lanka.  Would it be possible for the sacred land to be left intact by creating a beautiful peace garden there to celebrate the glory of God? There are so many sacred trees and fragrant flowers mentioned in holy scriptures that could be planted. Around the perimeter could be typical Indian pierced stonework inscribed with uplifting verses from the Gita, from the Koran, the Bible, the Guru Granth Sahib and other scriptures of the world.Such a garden could be a kaleidoscope of beauty, colors and harmony meant to show the world an example of unity in diversity. Over the centuries so many invaders came and stole the wealth and jewels of India. This most precious jewel India’s gift of dharma could shine so brightly and light the world in a setting such as this!


Rukmini Walker is a disciple of A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, the Founder-Acarya of the International Society for Krishna Consciousness. She lives in the US, in Washington, DC.

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Meditation on the Shores of the Bay of Bengal

Denise from Sound Awakenings in Pennsylvania was with us on our India Kirtan Adventure in January. Here's an offering from her as an inspiration for your Day!  All the best, Rukmini

-- by Denise Mihalik
It was six am and all was quiet. It was a cool, misty morning well before sunrise. A few of us met to chant japa* together.  Our hair was already wet from the falling mist and we could barely see the waves breaking through the fog.  I was waiting to see a mystical form or a pirate ship appear on the foggy horizon but instead, I saw pilgrims arriving at the bay for the first time.  Some were crying, some yelled with joy, others just needed rest, for they had traveled days, maybe weeks (many on foot) to reach this sacred land.  They came here to pray, bathe, and connect to waters that are deemed holy. Some will even offer the ashes of loved ones.  My group chanted quietly as we continued our meditation.  I looked to the left to see our hotel lifeguard walk up to water to begin his morning prayer.  He honored the four directions, touched the sea with his right hand and brought the water to his forehead.  He could now begin his work day.  He noticed us sitting on the wet sand, our hair wet from the dew and began to pitch a tent for us.  The beach peddlers arrived. They knew us by now, as it was day three, and we knew what they were peddling. Conch shells and pearls.  “No thank you” we said which means maybe to the peddlers.  We showed them our mala beads. ‘Praying” we said.  They stepped a few feet away, watching, waiting, hoping.

The lifeguard, tent now pitched, got chairs and insisted that we move under the tent and sit in the chairs.  Although content on the wet sand, we could not insult his efforts.  The lifeguard dried each chair for us. We sat.  The peddlers saw our movement and took the opportunity for a possible sale. The conch peddler set up all of his shells in front of us.  “You look while you pray” he said.  He knelt in front of me staring.  I closed my eyes to focus on my meditation, but the smell of gas fumes suddenly filled our tent.  The chai peddler had arrived and he was heating the water.  Now my mouth began to water for he made the best chai in all of Puri.  He sat and watched us.  “Praying” we said.  I gave him the “see you later ‘ signal and my mind now had a deadline.We coughed from the smell of his fuel. The conch  peddler held a shell in front of my face.  “Good conch”, he said.  He blew into it.  It resonated loudly. As if on cue the camels walked past and the cotton candy peddler appeared.  PRAYING I reminded myself.Smiling, our fearless leader, Gaura Vani, stood up and said “Let’s walk” and we tried our hand at walking japa meditation.  (As I passed by the chai peddler, I made eye contact; wait for me, I’ll be back!)

This true example represents the many personalities and distractions our minds can offer us at any given time. How many peddlers do we have in our head? How much pollution,  how many cravings, or time limits do we impose upon ourselves.  I smile as I remember this very special day in Puri, India just a few weeks ago.

Lesson for me - There will always be distractions.  I chose to pilgrimage all the way to India to focus on Spirit and yet, there were still so many distractions.  The good news is that Spirit is HERE NOW even with

Camels and Peddlars and Chai, Oh My.

See you in meditation.  Let’s keep at it.Love and Light,Denise

 
*Japa is a type of meditation using a string of 108 beads called a mala.

Denise Mihalik is a Certified Sound Healing Practitioner, Voice Teacher, Yoga and YogaVoice® Instructor, Classical Singer, Kirtaniya, and Bhakti Yogi. Denise has been immersed in sound exploration since early childhood.  The sounds of nature and the world of music have greatly influenced her life.  She began studying voice in middle school and continued on to complete a Music Education degree at Westminster Choir College and a Voice Performance/Opera degree at UNC-Greensboro.  She toured professionally on the opera stage and sang throughout the US in various opera roles, recitals, and concerts.  In addition, she has been practicing yoga for the past 16 years and is a certified yoga and YogaVoice® Instructor.

 

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The Heart of a Pilgrim

-by Zain Saraswati Jamal
A ripe, mango-colored sun warms my skin as I acclimatize to the chaos of Puri streets. Dark almond eyes that resemble my own, gaze into my soul with deep recognition and linger upon my face as if trying to search for origin.  The sounds of ankle bells jingle through interludes of tuc tuc horns, repair work, distant chanting and the multitude of residents moving through their day.  I look down to my own unadorned feet, filthy from the red dust.  This is how I have come to love my feet most.  Covered in the dirt of Mother India.  I am home again, yet a foreigner in my own land.India is a vibration that I know in my blood, bones and heartbeat and each time I come, I wonder why I ever leave.  It is a remembrance that shakes me awake instantly – amidst the indescribable poverty, perceived suffering, pollution, varying spiritual beliefs and challenges which there are no words for, the resilience of the human spirit shines forth.

It is what spiritual seekers from the west have come here for years to discover, or rather, re-discover within themselves - a deep yearning for truth beyond the illusions of the material world, for the bliss that is our birthright, for the sacredness that we have forgotten.

It was in this very city of Puri where Lord Caitanya graced the earth with his divine presence.  His mission? To spread the holy name of Lord Krsna and to honor the love of Sri Radhe, the supreme devotee.  This grace continues to be alive and thriving in Puri. Here it feels, that the veil between worlds is thin, the frequency of unconditional love, which pervades all enters my spirit with ease and transmutes directly into my reality.  Dreams have become more vivid, intuition heighted and my practice has deepened in ways I did not expect but have prayed for, for a long time.To be with my soul brother Gaura Vani and Spiritual Mother and Teacher Rukmini, or Mataji, as I love to call her, and this extraordinary configuration of humans assembled for this pilgrimage, magnifies all of these feelings and emotions to the point where I feel that they will spill out of me onto the earth.

And spill, they did.  It all happened one afternoon.  We had spent the week in the most sacred temples of Puri, chanting blissfully, conducting sacred pujas, hearing the pastimes of Krsna and Lord Caitanya and of course taking darshan of the chakra, which sits atop of the Jaganath Temple. This is the temple, which is home to Lord Jaganatha, the exquisitely blissful form of Krsna, which appeared when he was returning to Vrindavana after an extended time away and was instantaneously overwhelmed by the sight of his beloved, Sri Radhe.To receive darshan at the Jaganath Temple is strictly reserved for Indian Nationals. Despite my heritage as a Gujarati woman, I am foreign born and have practiced varying faiths throughout my life which immediately discredits me from entering.  My family was forced into converting to another faith from Hinduism and subsequently fled India in order to save their lives some generations before. While they still continue to practice their faith, I discovered my own pathway to God, initially through yoga and later through the exploration of many other religious and spiritual practices before I discovered Krsna Consciousness.Despite my convoluted history, the original transmission of faith that has guided me throughout my life, that which is has been alive in within my soul since I was a child was calling out to me. I felt a force beyond the physical realm tugging at my heartstrings, magnetizing me toward the temple.  I was entranced with this notion throughout our time in Puri and spoke to a few locals about the possibility of entering as a Gujarati woman; however, there were no clear answers with respect to this nor were the repercussions associated with the decision made clear, should I be discovered. Despite it all, the day was upon me.  It was a day when we had planned to do a harinam around the temple with close to forty people.  I had no time to plan, prepare or dress accordingly due to our timing for the day, yet I knew that this was my moment.  As we stood in front of the temple waiting to begin, I could feel the yearning within my heart and in that moment passed my belongings to my dear friend telling her not to worry and that I was going in!Clothed in a simple western style skirt and shawl, breath bated, I entered the line up toward the main entrance keeping my eyes low and energetic demeanor confident. Finally, my turn came to pass through security.  Looking the guard straight in the eyes, in perfect Hindi, I responded to his questions asking about my origin ‘main Gujarati hoon’.I must mention that my Hindi is pretty rusty.  As an Indian woman growing up in the west in the 1990’s, I did everything I could to hide from my culture in order to ‘fit in’.  I recall days as a child, wearing mehndi (henna) on my hands after a wedding celebration and being teased for having a disease on my hands. I recall how my lunch looked and smelled different, how my parents had no idea about popular music or art and how frustrated I felt to have darker skin, eyes, hair and a strange name.  It was only until later in life that I truly embraced my culture and now I could not be more proud or grateful for the divine culture, beauty, tradition, spirituality and richness that I have been exposed to since childhood.Walking up the steps of the temple that day felt so right.  Hundreds of people came to take darshan and I followed the crowd in through the second set of gates and inside into the main temple, awestruck by the ornate murtis (deities) and the pillar where it was said that Lord Caitanya worshiped from.  The smell of ghee lamps filled the air as I took light from the aarti fire praying that it would reach the eyes all of those whom I love and purify them from whatever is no longer serving them.Suddenly, the crowd rushed toward the main altar and in that moment, the drapes opened and I saw Subhadra’s large golden face and glimmering white eyes.  I followed the rush and was swept into a sea of people, feet lifted off the earth, as I floated toward the altar taking in the jabs and pushes along the way.  As I approached the altar, there he was, Lord Jaganath.  I was mesmerized.  There are no words to fully explain what the darshan felt like but my whole body was tingling, my heart so filled with sensation and the crown of my head seemed to be elevating into the sky.  Despite the chaos around me, I felt internally silent, still.  In those moments, I prayed, telling Lord Jaganath that I was here under the guidance of Radhanath Swami Maharaj and Rukhmini Maharani and that I was carrying the prayers of all of my soul family to him. I prayed that he would enable me to be humble enough to carry his blessings back to them.  I thanked him for calling me to him and for clearing the way. Finally, I prayed that he would give me a cleansing as mild or intense as he saw fit, physically, mentally, and spiritually, that would enable me to clear the last of the trauma that I had been holding after a deep heartbreak, from my cells.  Just then, I was pushed out from my spot as the pujari handed me a fragrant yellow chrysanthemum and a few tulsi leaves and I ended up on the exit stairs of the temple.Gathering myself after this extraordinary experience, I spent time wandering through the smaller temples, watching the changing of the flags and enjoying darshan and despite having nothing with me in the way of contribution, I was gifted a handful of sacred prasadam, which I wrapped carefully in a palm leaf to carry back to my beloved group.Descending down the stairs, I caught the eyes of many of my friends - who had, in divine timing, just completed their harinam - but through my gaze back instructed them not to draw too much attention to me. Reuniting with my group was surreal and many of them could see that I was in a state of utter bliss.That night, Gaura Vani and his son Kirtan, asked me to pay attention to my dreams. As I left dinner, I could already feel the intensity of my prayer coming forth.  I was incredibly ill that night and exhausted on a cellular level.  After a 14-hour sleep, I awoke, energized and completely well.  Lord Jaganath was gentle on me I thought.That morning, I recollected my dreams.  Throughout the night, I had three beautiful dreams which included seeing Lord Caitayna coming out of the Bengal Sea, Lord Jaganath in countless expansions whilst walking through a dense, green, misty forest and a vision of myself in another time/life, distributing prasadam to thousands of people.As I sit now, at the Govardhan Eco Villagein the Sayarki Mountains just outside of Mumbai recollecting this precious experience, I am so deeply humbled by how Srila Prahbupada Maharaj’s mission to spread the love of Krsna Consciousness in the West, transformed the lives of so many devotees and through those devotees, whom I have been fortunate enough in this lifetime to encounter, this Canadian born Indian woman has not only found her way home but has found her way back to her spiritual essence.Infinite Pranams    

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Riding the Marriage Bike Home

Jo and Bob from Heart of the Village Yoga in Vermont were with us on our India Kirtan Adventure in January 2019. Here's an offering from them as an inspiration for your Valentine's Day!  All the best, Rukmini
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(This is a story I wrote with my wife Jo Kirsch. It is 13 years old, but it is still fun to read and worth sharing today. It was previously published in The Cracker Barrel, a Wilmington, VT magazine.)

2015-09-24Riding a bicycle for many miles can be a challenge for anyone. Riding 470 miles in 6 days over the Continental Divide twice, in temperatures ranging from 32 degrees to 99 degrees, well, this takes a certain mental attitude of determination no matter who you are. Now, try it on a tandem mountain bike when you’ve never been on one before, try it when one rider has never been on a bike for more than 25 miles at a time before, and try it with minimal seasonal training. Now, to top it off, try it with your spouse!Last summer we ventured to Colorado to do just that as part of the Bicycle Tour of Colorado, a fundraiser for the Public Broadcasting System in Colorado. Our lives are busy, so finding training time was rare. We threw out the training guide sent to us by the organizers and said, “We can do this. It will be a great experience.” We decided to avoid the hassles of transporting our bikes and found a rental shop on the web near the race start in Salida. We wanted to share the experience together, so we thought, “Why not a tandem? They have a mountain bike tandem at the rental shop. Good gear range. Stable. Why not?”As we rode around town the first day getting used to the bike, people would stop and talk with us. “Oh, you’re on the divorce bike.” “Do you guys have a strong relationship?” “You’re not newlyweds, are you?”  “How are your communication skills?” “Do you totally trust one another?”We smiled. We thought, “What are we getting ourselves into?” We practiced. Left turn. Right turn. Pedal. Glide. Stop. Go. BUMP! “How do you get out of these pedals?” We set up our tent with a thousand other riders on the school football field for the next day’s early morning start. There were only a couple other tandems and they were both road bikes. We didn’t speak much. Our neighbors in our tent community, from Minnesota, smiled knowingly, “You’ve never done this before? You’ve never been on a tandem before?” She was a triathlete, he was less experienced. Both of us sank deep into our own thoughts and slept lightly, filled with anticipation for the next day.We have our own recollections of the next few days….Day One: Salida to Gunnison; 65 miles over Monarch Pass (Elevation: 11,312 feet) Bob: “A mile or two out of town on a gently sloped, straight highway, I enjoy the air against my face, I revel in the sense of freedom a bike gives me. Excited, I pedal harder as everyone else who passes us says hello, then makes some sort of wisecrack. I want to keep up. ‘Are you pedaling back there?’ I ask.”Jo: “I don’t believe this. We’re hardly on our way and I’m hurting all over. My back hurts, my knee hurts. I need something stronger than Advil to numb my body. Everyone is passing us. How can that be when I’m pedaling as hard as I possibly can? Bob’s moaning about adjusting his cadence  … slowing it down…. to match mine. Well at least the sky is a perfect shade of blue and the temperature is just right. Oh, there’s a gas station. Let’s stop so I can get some Excedrin.”Bob: “The road starts to get steeper quickly. More people pass us. I put my head down and just pedal. It is going to be a long day, but I’ve pedaled long days before. Just keep going. ‘We’re never going to get there if we keep stopping so you can pee.”‘ Keep drinking, I tell her and remind myself. The first aid station can’t be that far away. Inside, I worry that she is already taking aspirin.”Jo: “Wow, we are starting to go up. I just have to keep on pedaling. I can do this. I know I can. The thing is I keep drinking, because I know I have to, and then I have to go pee. Well at least stopping to go pee gets my butt off this seat for a minute or two. Wow, look at that tandem go by. Those two are standing up and pedaling in tandem. How the heck do they do that? This is going to be a long day. I’m just focusing on each moment. I know I can do this.”Bob: “Refreshed after the first aid station and excited after the wealth of fresh foods we had eaten, I again crank away. It is uphill, with no end in sight. We come around one mountain bend only to see another still going up. ‘Keep pulling the majority of the load up the hill. I can do it,’ I think. Hot sun. Dry lips. Sunscreen. ‘Keep breathing’, I tell her. ‘Keep drinking.’ It is a beautiful day with beautiful views.”Jo: ‘We must be reaching the top of the hill. If we can reach the summit, the Continental Divide, it will be amazing. I’ve driven up winding roads like this before that climb up and up and up. I never imagined I’d be riding a bike up a mountain pass like this. I keep looking at the back of Bob’s shirt. It has a map of the whole tour screened on it and l can follow our path up Monarch Pass. Are we really climbing from 7000′ to 11,312’? I’m just going to keep counting and pedaling. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 1, 2, 3…”Bob: “The paint on the road reads: YOU DID IT! We made it to the top. Music is playing. Food is plentiful. I am exhausted but energized at the same time. We have a long downhill with hairpin turns ahead. How will the brakes work on a tandem? How will she react to speed? We aren’t even halfway there yet…”Jo: “Wow, I think I hear music. I can’t believe it. We reached the summit. It’s all downhill from here. Hey, they just took our photo! This is cool. We made it. I’m going to get off this bike and go devour some bagels and peanut butter and whatever else they have at this aid station. Wow, it’s extraordinarily beautiful up here.”Bob: “The speed of the downhill is wonderful. Let it rip. Stand up and feel the air, the freedom. Let the cars wait for us. I’m using the entire lane to carve these turns!”Jo: “Oh my God! This is SCARY! I just have to hold on to the pedals and stay steady. WE ARE FLYING DOWN THIS ROAD. Oh my God! I don’t want to drive Bob crazy but here comes a corner, which way do I lean, oh please slow down, slow down, slow down. I’m praying. I’m singing prayers. I know he can’t hear me through the wind. Okay, I have to start to relax. Relax, relax, relax. Bob’s done this before, he knows what he’s doing. We’re not going to die. Hey, we’re finally passing some other bikes. I guess these tandems do really rip downhill. Oh, phew, sigh, it’s starting to flatten out. Wow, what a ride.”Bob: “The ride to Gunnison is long. A slight head wind is in my face. I have nothing left in my legs, but I still feel like I am carrying most of the load and have to continue to do it. Thirty miles seems so long. Twenty miles. Ten miles. The last mile, where’s the end? Where’s the food? Look at all the people showered, already fed, tents up, walking around refreshed. I go to get food. She goes to pee.”Jo: “Well, now I wish we had a little downhill left. This flat stretch to Gunnison is going on forever. Just keep pedaling. No choice. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9,10, 1, 2, 3 … Hey look at that rider. He’s coming towards us. And he looks all clean and showered. “You’re almost there,” he shouts. “The High School is just around the comer.” We made it. Pee. Set up the tent. Shower. Food. Stretch. Sleep. Wow.”Day Two: Gunnison to Delta; 100 miles; Climb 2,000 feet to over 9,000 feet elevation along the Blue Mesa Reservoir, then descend to the desert at just over 5,000 feet elevation.Bob: “The crisp morning tail wind is wonderful. We ride along the winding edge of the reservoir, going fast. People still pass us, but I feel great. The first aid station comes quickly. The road along the Black River Canyon winds up and down. I pedal hard. I let us pick up speed on the descents. We ride for a while with a Californian who had recently ridden cross-country. He slows for us. We pedal harder to keep up with him. For once, I feel some power from the back of the bike. This is good. We keep up with a biker who seems very acquainted with bike touring, who seems to be pedaling close to his wife. The descent to the valley floor is amazing. I let it rip. We pass many other bikers, even a cow in the road. It is very hot on the valley floor. It is a desert: 99 degrees and dry. We are parched. I am dehydrated and feel sick. The heat is too much for me. Most bikers are there when we get to the school field. There aren’t many spaces left. They serve ribs for dinner. I am becoming a vegetarian. The shower in the portable shower truck never felt better. I find some shade and don’t move. Two days down. One more day, then a rest day. Everyone talks about the day ahead. A bunch of masochists, I think to myself. They enjoy talking about the difficulty, the pain.”Jo: “I feel good today. After yesterday I can do anything. I think we’re getting the hang of this. This Canyon is so beautiful. The air against my skin feels nice. Hawks are riding the thermals above. Plenty of sun screen on. The climb today is filled with I switchbacks. This is better than yesterday, because the road climbs a ways and then descends and climbs again. Not all up and all down. I feel more comfortable going down. Lean into the turn. Relax my body. The day is starling to get hot. Keep drinking. Stay hydrated. Keep going. We’re almost there. Ahhhh. I never guessed I’d be showering in a truck in the desert. It feels good to cool off. Can’t wait for the sun to go down. We need sleep.2015-09-24 ShowersDay Three: Delta to Palisade; 75 miles; Over the Grand Mesa, climbing almost 6,000 feet, then descending again to desert and peach country.Bob: “A slight incline and headwind greet us. ‘If we’re going to make it through the day, we’re going to have to learn to stand up to climb. Let’s practice.’ The road just gets steeper and steeper. I want to keep pushing, she was starling to lose it. I remind her to breath instead of cursing. ‘Use different muscles.’ To me, it is a test. To her, it seems like torture. ‘Just a little further, then we’ll take a break!” The climb continues after the rest stop near the top, and then it gets steeper. The clouds darken and the temperature drops. Thunder. Rain. Hail. Near freezing temperatures. We neglected the advice to carry rain gear up the climb; we have only nylon windbreakers. I shiver uncontrollably. Some riders seek cover. Many are quitting and taking the sag wagon. The sag wagons wait for us at the top. Our friend from Minnesota is now driving one van, volunteering after suffering through too much knee pain. ‘It is clear up ahead on the other side of the Mesa, but I’ve got room for you in the van if you want a ride.’ The van looks warm, steamy and crowded. We ride. We shiver. I have a hard time controlling my hands for the braking on the descent. My teeth chatter and I can not stop them.”Jo: “This is hard. I am dehydrated from yesterday. My legs feel like jelly. I drain my camelback, reach the first aid station and begin to come alive. Here we go. This is the endless up. Endless. Keep pedaling. I can’t believe I’m doing this. This is nuts. Everything hurts: my butt, my knee, my stomach, my back. I just keep moving my focus from one pain to the next. I’m losing it. I’m swearing. Bob suggests I close my mouth and focus cm my breath. I’m ready to kill him. But I feel a little better. Keep going,” he says. “This will help you perform when you’re skiing moguls next year and you want to stop and you remember this. This will help you perform and reach your goals in life.” I like this train of thought. Grrrrrr. I’m an athlete. Grrrrrrr. I am strong. Grrrrrrr. I’m an athlete. I can do this. I hear the D.J.’s music. We must be at the summit aid station. My tears are flowing freely in gratitude. Past the aid station, huge storm clouds come up behind us. Lightning and thunder. “What are we going to do?” I shout. “Ride ahead of the storm,” he retorts. He’s nuts… he’s lost it… we’re done for. Where is the sag wagon? Where’s some shelter? This hail hurts. I’m soaked through. This is unbelievable. We make it to the top. The storm passes over. The sag driver said, “The road is dry up ahead. The ride down should be a beauty.” We keep riding. We dry off and warm up as we descend into the aid station in the 90-degree desert. Unbelievable.”Bob: “Before long, the sun is out and we glide through a beautiful mountain descent. We had been here before with the kids a few years back to camp and backpack. It is familiar. It is beautiful. It is warm again. It is hot again. As we arrive into Palisades, the local fire company greets us with an arcing spray from a fire hose. It is refreshing as it almost evaporates on contact. ‘If they only knew about our day in cold, rain and hail,’ I ponder. The townspeople are so happy to have us in town for two nights and a day. They schedule a barbecue in the park with live music. We rest under the large trees in this little oasis between the steep walls of a canyon surrounding us. They serve more meat, ribs and chipped beef. I eat more veggies and desserts. I also try to deal with an apparent sinus infection. We sit in a pool most of the rest day. We meet an endurance bike rider who competes in 24-hour races (this brings back memories for me) and will be coming to our area to do a Montreal to Boston and back race later that month. He goes for a ride on the day off through the vineyards. We are with some serious bikers, but somehow, after doing the Grand Mesa ourselves, I feel like we have become one of them. I am proud of Jo. She had done it, all the way.”Jo: “A rest day is just what we need. Write some postcards. Take it easy. Relax. And prepare for three more days of riding. I’m beginning to feel like we can do this. Each day is an eternity. But each time we reach our goal, I feel a huge sense of relief and accomplishment.”Day Four: Palisade to Glenwood Springs; 76 miles, along a highway in a canyon gently rising 1,000 feet.Bob: We have a rhythm now. We pedal into a slight headwind the whole way, but along the gentle grades of a highway. After a day off, I am anxious to go through the morning ritual of packing our tent, loading our gear in a truck, eating breakfast and getting on the road again. It doesn’t seem like as many people are passing us today. We cut the wind, speak little and go about our business. We encounter a little rain near the end, but our day is otherwise largely uneventful. We find a patch of green for our tent near the school, take showers, and walk around town. Other bikers arrive behind us. We hold hands.”Jo: “A long day. Pretty flat. I have a sense now that we can do this. We’re no longer the last riders to come into town and set up our tent.”Day Five: Glenwood Springs to Leadville; 90 miles, climbing almost 5,000 feet to Tennessee Pass at Elevation 10,424 feet.Bob: “The ride along the bike path in Glenwood Canyon in the morning is both beautiful and dangerous. We go through it smoothly, but we hear of some crashes. Riding a tandem around bollards and small pedestrian bridges is getting easy for us. The ride through the communities around Vail gets us talking about our ski teaching futures. Some other bikers are drafting behind us. Then the climbs up Battle Mountain and then to Tennessee Pass. We are in sync now. We stand up and climb together, or even take turns. We pass some other climbers. Our legs and butts scream, but we keep going. I pull her. She pushes me. The night of camping in Leadville at over 10,000 feet is glorious. Many riders arrive after us. Some on bikes, some in vans. We watch the sun set. We sleep soundly, only interrupted by our pee breaks. We watch the sun rise. ”Jo: “We are excited about the day. We have a rhythm now. We communicate well and move together on the bike. The bike path winds along the canyon floor offering incredible views of the rock walls and birds and the rushing Colorado River. We climb two summits today, Battle Mountain and Tennessee Pass. We ride by ski areas and are energized by the big mountains. Sometimes we both stand up and pedal. Sometimes Bob is up and I’m down and sometimes, I’m standing up and Bob is sitting. Wow! My excitement and enthusiasm with our riding, our surroundings and our success is overcoming my pain and exhaustion. This is actually fun. Camping at Leadville High School was dramatic. I hope the kids who go to school here realize the dream they are living, surrounded by 12,000+ feet high mountain peaks. We are as high as a kite. And only one day left… all downhill back to Salida.”2015-09-24 TentsDay Six: Leadville to Salida; 60 miles, downhill, past the Collegiate Peaks.Bob: “Downhill on a tandem is like skiing down a softly-groomed, intermediate run on giant-slalom skis. Effortless. Stable. Cutting the wind decisively. We relax. We stand up. We yell in glee. The fresh morning air, I’ll remember it forever. We glide home, almost sad that it is over. Biking around Salida now is effortless, corners and street signs are now uneventful, and people greet us warmly. We pack up. We return our bike, surprising the shop owners with our success, and spend the afternoon together by the river in the shade. Still married. Wanting to do it again.”Jo: “The sweet morning air and soft light from the rising sun wash over us as we begin our easy descent to Salida. Effortlessly pedaling and gliding down the road in tandem, we reach the outskirts of town before we’re ready. We ride through the familiar streets and coast under the finish line banner, reaching our destination together, connected and enriched. Still married. Looking forward to our next tour.”

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Entering Kartika

It’s that time of year again in which the sun moves away from the Earth, temperatures drop and darker days start moving in. For many of the world’s major religious traditions, these darker autumn and winter months become an impetus to connect with our own inner light sources: our spiritual sparks. This is often represented through the ritualistic lighting of little candles, or lamps.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Beginning with this month’s Vaishnava offerings of ghee lamps for Damodar, to the flickering Diwali lamps, to the lighting of menorahs, we are entering a special time of year marked by people all over the world as a celebration of spiritual light.[/perfectpullquote]If we pay close enough attention, we’ll notice that our individual experiences of spiritual light and darkness increase and decrease with a rhythm that mimics the seasonal changes in nature around us. The yogis of the past—like Buddha and Patanjali—were incredibly attuned to this, and worked within these natural forces to support swift, spiritual development.Long, dark nights of the soul—to borrow a phrase from John of the Cross—have an amazing ability to cause us to reach toward divine light with the most fervor, like Arjuna did at the beginning of the Gita. As such, autumn is meant to prepare us for a spiritual hibernation of sorts, in which we take inventory of all those places and people that we find the most spiritually nourishing in our lives, and keep them very close to us.In this context, darkness paradoxically becomes a servant of the light, fueling its brightness. After all, the light of a candle shines the brightest in a dark room.The brightest light in the Bhakti tradition is the supreme Goddess, Radha: Krishna’s dearest beloved. Radha and the Gopis—her cowherd girlfriends—spend the entire autumn season in the forests of Vraja, playing with Krishna, in what is called the Rasa Lila.During the Rasa Lila, the Gopis express the sweet sentiments of devotional love that are at the very heart of the Bhakti tradition. Today, we find these beautiful, poetic words in the tenth book of the Bhagavat Purana: the ancient Sanskrit text so dear to practitioners of Bhakti.This month, devotees of Radha and Krishna, meditate on the stories of the Bhagavat Purana that describe Krishna as an adorable toddler: Damodar. In one of the stories, Krishna’s mother, Yashoda, binds him up with her love—represented by ropes. Baby Krishna eventually frees himself of these ropes and crawls off. But Krishna never frees himself of the “ropes” of Radha’s love.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Radha’s love has more power over Krishna than anything else. During the month of Kartika, we especially celebrate and serve this love.[/perfectpullquote]In fact, the special spiritual power, or shakti, that flows forth to us this month mercifully comes to us from Radha: for she grants us direct access to him. For this reason, Radha is called Urjesvari: the empress of all power. Her love is so powerful, in fact, that the Bhakti tradition describes it as stopping the sun and the moon in their orbits.It is said that during this whole month of Kartika the moon remained full—its bright light shining upon Radha Krishna and the Gopis during the Rasa Lila. Kartika begins with the last full moon (sharad purnima), and lasts until the next (rasa yatra purnima).We light the candles every morning and evening this time of year to remind us that our spiritual enthusiasm has the potential of never waning, just like the full moon of autumn during the Rasa Lila. The external lights are a beautiful reminder of the spiritual sparks we each have burning within us all the time.Kartika is considered the holiest month of the Bhakti tradition because—despite the darkness all around us—Radha’s love is always shinning brightly, and this is the month we feel it the most, as she shines her special mercy upon us.(Written by Krishna Kanta Dasi) 

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Revisiting the Still Point

Sacinandana Swami is one of my favorite teachers. He is specially focused on deepening the practice of chanting the Holy Name. Although his is not the voice of a woman, he is one of those men who has a highly evolved spiritually feminine side, being a devout worshiper of the divine feminine, Sri Radha.

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~From a lecture by Sacinandana Swami in Goloka Dhäma, Germany, April 1st, 2018~

Today I would like to describe what has to happen for a normal conditioned soul to become a devotee. I would like to present the dynamics of transformation – how they are explained in the Vedas.It is not an easy transformation. Someone who wants to keep things the way they are cannot really enter into spiritual life and undergo transformation. Sometimes spiritual life is seen as an addition to ordinary life, but if we take it seriously it becomes our life and the ordinary one dissolves itself.We have to start with a new sense of self: “I am a spiritual soul,a servant of Krishna or Srimati Radharani. I am not the labels I carry”. This new sense of self brings much with it: new thoughts, feelings, values, desires, actions and even dreams.Usually transformation begins from a low-point in life when you feel limited and dissatisfied. From this low-point we cross a threshold leading us out of our old life into a liminal space – a situation or phase in life that is full of uncertainty, since we have left the old but don’t have a clear picture of the new yet. It is a space of not-knowing where we take a risk by leaving behind the known and becoming free for new things to happen. The liminal space is a still point full of new opportunities but can also be scary because we are in-between the old and new and walking forward on the basis of faith. Then, with the power of spiritual practices a new life emerges from this liminal space.However, it is crucial that we revisit this liminal space again and again in order to keep on advancing.  Again and again, we have to leave the old, enter the still point and discover new opportunities. The art of transformation should continue until we have reached perfection. If we are not willing to do this, we end up leading a compromised spiritual life; we will not wake up to our eternal identity as a devotee of Krishna. We will cheat ourselves and in the hour of death realize that we have not used the opportunities Krishna has given us. Advancement means you are on the move, you are moving forward. We are pilgrims in this world, and we shouldn’t build houses on a bridge.  Life is a bridge to eternity and you can cross it by constantly purifying yourself.

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  Living in the Season: Summer!

by Susan Weiser Mason

(Rukmini Walker's sister)

Here in Damariscotta Mills the Summer is full on. Flowers are blooming profusely and veggies are exploding out of what once were neat rows. Life is abundant, and a bit over the top! This is the season when I walk to the swimming hole to get refreshed and to hang out with neighbors and new found friends. What I find there is an ease and informality that’s satisfying and fun. The free flowing and relaxed communal atmosphere of the swimming hole is, in fact, a great example of what Summer is all about.

 Using the lessons and practice of Five Element Acupuncture, I am following what is a seamless flow of change throughout the year, and I am hoping you will follow along with me. By drawing attention to how every season has an energetic texture that presents opportunities and tasks, we may be reminded how we can live in harmony with this, our very own Summer, unfolding right here, right now.

[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""] Summer is the time of maximum expansion and fullness. We see it in the garden, and we feel it under the luxuriant shade of trees. There is energy and there is appetite. The days are long, and we have capacity, and we want to embrace it all.[/perfectpullquote]

 I decided to wait until August to write this letter because the promise of Summer and the way we actually end up navigating through Summer, are often at variance with one another.

  Summer has us opening our doors and entertaining what makes us happy. Joy is ephemeral and radiant. It excites us, and encourages laughter. We may even gather some of the magic andhold it close into the depths of Winter. But as we play, as we visit, and as we throw ourselves into the bright pageant of Summer, weoften overextend ourselves, and there is exhaustion.

 An interesting question might be, is this really the problem of Summer, or have we just come to live the whole year as though it were Summer? If we run just as hard in February with no allowance for Winter’s requirement to rest and rejuvenate, we may simply not have the reserves to successfully get through August. Summer madness counts on the rest of the year for preparation.

 Many forgo Summer in order to work as much as possible when there is economic opportunity in Maine. We can leverage the energy of summer to help support our demanding work requirements, however. If we can still find some time to hang out and experience the fullness of the season and feel included by it, we can manage, as there is a lot of energy to spare, in principle. But there needs to be a season to replenish the reservoir. Going non-stop all year long in not a realistic picture, if health is a consideration.

 And there are those who find the wonderful prospect of hanging out with friends and family overtaken by the reality of hosting too many guests, and being worn out facilitating another’s summer experience, while feeling conflicted as host and caregiver, rather than being a fellow adventurer. The Nurture Model is worthy of esteem, but it’s not actually the invitation of Summer. That’s the core energy of another season, and we will talk about it in the next letter.

 We need to align with every season in some meaningful way, so that the opportunities and tasks of that season are met. We cannot, and our bodies will not simply absent themselves. Energetically, we’re now in Summer, like it or not. It’s not discretionary, regardless of whether the intellect is paying attention.

[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""] Nature is the perfect companion and antidote for both the delights and challenges of Summer. To be out in it, to be awed by the proliferation of life, the fullness of green, the ocean’s expanse, is to be held by it’s quiet authority. The natural world perfectly moderates and integrates the lessons of Summer, including us as a part of it.[/perfectpullquote]

 Increased social interaction just goes along with Summer. While this is good, it can be relentless. Finding balance in this time of excess is essential. For example, instead being a skipping stone, just sit down and let the party come to you. Meet and really talk with one person. Surrender to the spacious feeling of having an authentic connection. Get nourished, rather than feeling swept along and dissipated by the busyness of an event.

 Summer makes us have to face how our ‘wanting’ is almost unquenchable.If we watch the trees, their poise and patience areevidentand instructive, even as they give themselves away. We too, deserve to feel rooted, which gives rise to generosity.We all belong! That is really Summers’ deep refrain! Live and let live. It’s not sentimental, and it’s not always safe, as all things relational come without guarantees.

 In this the most expansive time of the year, many feel a bit too exposed. There’s a quiet voice wishing for a little less wildness, please. A little more containment, please. For some, its like staying too long at the fair, and they will not regret that Summer isbrief. Longing for its return in the middle of Winter is another matter, of course.

 So to finish up, eat fresh while you can! Meet your farmer and your baker. Lighter fare is well suited for summer. The water beckons. The trail invites, but so does a book, or a nap. Enjoy!

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Susan Weiser Mason has been practicing Traditional Acupuncture in Midcoast Maine for twenty seven years. Susan earned a Master’s of Acupuncture degree from the Traditional Acupuncture Institute (now called Maryland University of Integrative Health). In 1986, she opened her Traditional Acupuncture private practice in Bath, Maine and moved to Nobleboro in 1989. She earned an advanced degree from the College for Traditional Acupuncture in England in 1989. Susan served on the board of the Maine Association for Acupuncture and Oriental Medicine for many years and was involved in drafting the Maine Acupuncture Law in 1990. Since 1998, she has served on the teaching faculty of the Academy for Five Element Acupuncture in Gainsville, Florida. Learn more about her on her website here.

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Lessons From Geese

Sermon by Dr. Robert McNeish, 1972.

 

‘But ask the animals, and they will teach you,or the birds in the sky, and they will tell you;or speak to the earth, and it will teach you,or let the fish in the sea inform you. Which of all these does not know,that the hand of the Lord has done this?’

The Bible. Job 12:7-9

Have you ever wondered why geese fly in V formation? As with most animal behavior, God had a good reason for including that in their instincts. As each bird flaps it wings, it creates uplift for the bird following. In a V formation, the whole flock adds 71% more flying range than if each bird flew alone. Whenever a goose falls out of formation, it suddenly feels the drag and resistance of trying to fly alone and quickly gets back into formation.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Like geese, people who share a common direction and sense of community can get where they are going quicker and easier than those who try it alone.[/perfectpullquote]When a goose gets tired, it rotates back into the formation and another goose flies at the point position.If people had as much sense as these geese, they would realize that ultimately their success depends on working as a team, taking turns doing the hard tasks and sharing the leadership.Geese in the rear formation honk to encourage those up front to up their speed. It is important that our ‘honking’ from behind be encouraging. Otherwise, it is just honking.When a goose gets sick or wounded, two other geese drop out of formation two other geese follow it down to help and to provide protection. They stay with the unhealthy member of the flock until it is either able to fly again or dies. They then launch out again with another passing flock or try to catch up with their own.May we be so sacrificial that we may be worthy of such friends in our time of need. We don’t have to be scientists to learn from God’s marvelous creation; you need only stop long enough to observe and let God reveal his wonders to you.

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Reflections from Rukmini Walker:

If we are awake, if we have our eyes open, we can learn so much from nature, and from other creatures who share our world. I can only pray to use my "honk" only to encourage others. I can only pray to truly know when to lead, and when to, in humility, accept the uplifting leadership of one who is stronger, or wiser than me in any given circumstance.
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Divertimento ~ Mantra Mumbo Jumbo

by Sravaniya DiPecoraro

 Sanskrit seems to be making a comeback. Individuals are getting Oṁ symbols tattooed on their shoulders, chests and elsewhere, and are chanting verses at the beginning of their yoga workouts. Congregational singing accompanied with instruments (kīrtan) is arriving on the scene as a social activity. This can be a good thing, or a bad one.A curious conversation occurred at a rehearsal for kīrtan which I attended.  When a yoga instructor was sharing a chant to Lord Śiva that she enjoyed singing, a leader of the group, a young brahmacārī, or celibate monk, who had lived and studied for a considerable time in his guru’s yoga ashram, corrected her pronunciation. “Hara means Śiva,” he said. “Hari means Krishna and Hare means Rādhā. It should be Hara, not Hari.” She hesitated, then came out with “Well…this is the way I learned it.” Her reply was simple but dismissive. It seemed she was not interested in taking on board what he was saying, as if chanting any which way was fine. This is a teacher, mind you — someone who is supposed to guide and correct her students in their yoga practice.“It’s all the same anyway,” chimed in a devotee of an Advaita swami, who beamed a most politically correct smile, as if we should all be nice children and get along. The brahmacārī sniffed, readjusted his position at the harmonium and looked down at his notes. The matter slipped through the cracks in the floor and that was that.This is nothing new. In kīrtan performances I have heard the egalitarian proclaiming with happy conviction: “It doesn’t matter what the meaning of the chant is. It’s all one…we are all one. So just join in.” This is extremely seductive.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]If Sanskrit changes your consciousness, shouldn’t you, like… read the label on the mantras, so to speak, and make sure they are okay? [/perfectpullquote]But people take everything so casually and do whatever they feel like under the banner of free self-expression. In the US, the bastion of life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness, even convicted murderers and rapists get their day or special mini-series playing rock music on national cable television, never mind how the survivors of their crimes or their families feel about it. Artistic expression is sacred and nobody is allowed to throw a monkey wrench into the works. So chanting Sanskrit incorrectly is fine, too. We all know what happens if we spell an email address incorrectly, but chanting mantras any which way doesn’t matter, right? From the pinnacle of my admittedly modest fund of knowledge after more than forty years of study, let me say this:  Everything manifests from the subtle level to the gross. The mind is the cause of the body. Sound influences consciousness. It can elevate or it can degrade the mind. Sanskrit, in particular and distinguished from all other languages, is the seed of form.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]What you chant changes your consciousness and will manifest eventually in form.[/perfectpullquote]This is the reason why I consider it essential for a yoga teacher to be able to pronounce the Sanskrit names of the poses; their students will hear and then through cultivation and practice manifest the form correctly. I have seen this happen.Sanskrit has been called the language of the gods. It summons them, supplicates and glorifies them. There are other incantations, however,  that summon other beings and have also been used for centuries.It is better to be careful what you chant and, for that matter, what you hear. Find out what it means first. You can’t afford not to. Anyone involved in teaching so-called spiritual practices who is really vague or doesn’t explain what they are doing is either poorly trained or trying to pull a fast one. Either way, they are not looking out for you. 

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This is an excerpt from the author's book Basic Bhagavad-Gita: An Introduction of Bhagavat Vedanta, available here.Sravaniya DiPecoraro has been an initiated disciple of A.C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada since 1971. She was instrumental in getting Srila Prabhupada's Bhagavad-Gita As It Is translated into Chinese. A Yoga Alliance E-RYT 500 instructor, she has also taught hatha yoga in the Far East since 1983 and in the early 90s was the first professional yoga teacher in Hong Kong. Sravaniya has also been an astrological and psychic consultant since 1992 and her clients include people from all walks of life and diverse cultures. She has been featured in a variety of publications including The Asian Wall Street Journal, the South China Morning Post, Hong Kong Standard, HK Magazine and others, and has appeared on CNBC as well as local television and radio. Learn more about her on her website or Facebook page, Barefoot Philosopher

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Expectations

Have you heard it said these days that the secret to happiness is to lower your expectations? It makes sense, doesn’t it? We often put so much pressure on ourselves or each other, due to our unnecessary or overblown expectations.But the other day I read a statement from the great Bhakti teacher, Bhaktivinode Thakur. He lived and taught in the 19th Century. He was an esteemed district magistrate under the British Raj; he had twelve children; he slept little and wrote prolifically in Bengali, Sanskrit and English. So, he was not a slacker.Understanding his position, I found what he said to be astounding, and I’ve been pondering it ever since:[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Bhaktivinode Thakur said that humility means to have no expectation. To me, most amazing![/perfectpullquote]We live in an achiever’s culture, a culture of the American Dream, a culture of Great Expectations, handed down from Dickens, perhaps, but from the British, most certainly. Conventional wisdom tells me that whatever I want to achieve can be mine, if I only work hard enough and pull myself up by my own bootstraps.Counterintuitively, the culture of Bhakti is a receiver’s culture. I serve, aspiring to offer my whole heart, expecting grace to come of its own sweet will, if and when He (the divine masculine, Sri Krsna) and She (the divine feminine, Sri Radha) so choose to send the waters of Their mercy down to me. Yes, expectation of divine grace.But so often we have undue expectations of the mortals who share our lives. But they are just like me, so often in their brokenness, unable to come up to the high bar they set for themselves, or that I or others like me, impose on them. I sometimes have undue expectations of my partner, my friends, my children, my employees, my boss, my students, or teachers- it goes on and on.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]It seems to me that this lowering the bar of expectation could invoke quite a shift, could usher in a kinder, more compassionate world.[/perfectpullquote]There’s proverbial bird in Sanskrit literature, called the Cataka bird. Perhaps it’s the same as the Native American thunderbird. This bird will not drink from the ground, not from a pond or a river, or the ocean. Always looking up, it chooses to remain thirsty until the monsoon rains pour from the raincloud above. That’s a lot of patience, often about nine months of the year!Maybe this outlook could correct our victimhood or, on the other hand, the pride of entitlement we so often live by. Maybe our lives would be different if we could become, so internally awake in our outlooks as to have no expectations of others, but to be aspiring to love and serve in humility, expecting, one day, those cooling drops of grace from above.All the best,Rukmini Walker

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Deepening my Relationship with The Goddess

Pranada Comtois

 It’s the nature of spiritual practice, or sadhana, to move from head-to-heart to become harmonized. This is why it took me several years after I began my practice of Bhakti yoga, nearly fifty years ago, to really internalize certain concepts beyond theory and let them find a deep place in my being. This isn’t surprising since one such concept, and perhaps one of the most provocative, is that -according to Bhakti Theology-  all souls (whether in a male or female body) are feminine!Ironically, females were oppressed in the Bhakti community where I lived and in response, for a while, I tried to suppress my own femininity. Even though we had all been taught that we are not our physical bodies, gender seemed to become an issue in many Bhakti temples. Throughout those struggles I absorbed myself in japa and kirtan,the main practices of Bhakti yoga. Quietly to myself, and out loud in groups, respectively, I chanted the ancient Hare Krishna maha-mantra, which addresses the Supreme Divine as both male and female.Although, at first my focus was on Krishna – the divine masculine – as my meditation progressed through the decades, Radha – the divine feminine and supreme Goddess—came to the forefront of my heart and awareness. Soon, pleasing her, serving her, and seeing her became my passionate, cherished goal.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]As my practice continued, Radha revealed her beautiful qualities to me. She is patient, grave, affectionate, compassionate, gentle, grateful, merciful, respect­ful, etc. In fact, all souls possess the same goddess-like qualities at their spiritual cores. How I longed to awaken these within myself![/perfectpullquote]One text describes: “Radha is the full power, and Krishna is the possessor of full power.” Gradually Radha, the Divine Feminine, showed me the formidable power of the feminine, for her love conquers the all-powerful Krishna!This divine vision of Goddess Radha overpowering God through love – knocking him off his throne – astonished me. I realized that the Goddess not only shares the throne at the summit of reality, she demurely controls it, as well as he who owns it! And she does so with the deepest compassion and pure love: a love that drives God mad.Each day my relationship with Radha – and understanding how powerful the feminine can be – deepens. Meditating on Goddess Radha has unlocked transcendental reflections in me as I begin to understand the awesome implications in declaring all souls as feminine: that we all have these qualities and this power of spiritual love, regardless of our biological genders. What a different world it would be if all people imbibed these powerful, divine qualities!We experience masculine and feminine in this world – however imbalanced – because they have a pure state in the spiritual world. Unfortunately, our experiences of masculine and feminine energies are but impoverished reflections of their spiritual source and oftentimes the world subjugates the female and accentuates the male.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]The Goddess teaches us how to do away with inebriated concepts of gender by empowering ourselves with her divine qualities and her overpowering, pure love through service to our Divine Other.[/perfectpullquote]This is the path of Bhakti, which I call “The Way of the Feminine Divine.” It is the means by which we achieve our full potential as spiritual beings. It is the way of the Goddess of Wise-Love, Radha, unto whom I offer my life each day in the service of helping others call Radha into their lives.Goddess Radha is the exemplar lover and the shelter of all affection. For me, she’s the transcendent goal. Whether in a male or female body and whichever gender we identify with, in our spiritual perfection – according to Bhakti – we’re all servants of the Supreme Goddess Radha!And what happens when we become servants of the divine goddess in the truest sense? We become spiritual lovers. We conquer God! We conquer our Divine Other with our love. Is there any greater potential for the soul? Not as I see it.This essay was originally published in GODDESS, When She Rules: Expressions by Contemporary Women, (Golden Dragonfly Press, Jan.2018)______________________________________________Pranada Comtois is a devoted pilgrim, teacher, and award-winning author of Wise-Love: Bhakti and the Search for the Soul of Consciousness. Her writing sheds light on bhakti’s wisdom school of heartfulness with a focus on how to culture wise-love in our lives and relationships so we can experience the inherent, unbounded joy of the self. At sixteen she met her teacher A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami and began her lifelong study and practice of bhakti. The wisdom of her teaching grows from living for twenty years as a contemplative in bhakti ashrams, and another twenty years raising a family and running two multi-million dollar businesses. Pranada is an activist in women’s spiritual empowerment. She was the first to speak up for gender harmony in the modern bhakti tradition and successfully organized global steps against gender injustice. Her writing has appeared in Integral Yoga, Rebelle Society, Elephant Journal, Tattooed Buddha, and the books Journey of the Heart, Bhakti Blossoms, and GODDESS: When She Rules. She is a featured speaker in the film Women of Bhakti.Her debut, award-winning book, Wise-Love: Bhakti and the Search for the Soul of Consciousness is available here. Connect with Pranada on her website here. 

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You are a Sacred Spark of the One Supreme Whole

Rukmini Walker

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[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""] "Comparison is the thief of joy."  Theodore Roosevelt [/perfectpullquote]

Most of us spend at least some of our waking energy comparing ourselves to others: our work output, our capabilities of various sorts, our intelligence, our beauty, our education, our agility in yoga, our financial stability, even our detachment from all of these things. Sometimes after comparing ourselves to another we feel appreciation for them, but at other times we feel jealousy.

When we can pause and appreciate someone’s good qualities we become enriched by them. When enviousness or jealousy rears their ugly faces, a door can open to the dark side, leading, perhaps, we know not where.

 I love this quote from Mother Teresa, who worked so selflessly, along with her sisters, for so many years caring for the needs of the poor in the mean streets of Kolkata. She said:

[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""] “We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean.

But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop.”

~Mother Teresa~ [/perfectpullquote]

In other words, we are tiny as innumerable, infinitesimal jiva souls: we are insignificant. But yet, as a sacred spark of the Supreme Whole we can tell ourselves: “I am sacred, I am worthy, and my contribution, however small, is seen, is recognized, and is accepted by the One Supreme Whole, Sri Krishna.” He is the One who sits in our hearts, the One who sees all things, and hears every word that’s spoken, even in a whisper.

Each one of us possesses an original constellation of qualities—each of us unique like a snowflake. How can one be compared to another?!?

Each offering I make—each offering you make—is unprecedented in its uniqueness. No other person can, or will do it (whatever that may be), exactly the same way you or I will do it. And that’s our beauty, given to us by Krishna, that’s the beauty given to us to offer back to Lord Krishna.

And when each of us from each of our unique perspectives can appreciate that beauty, then we all become enriched.

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Living in the Season

by Susan Weiser Mason

Here in Damariscotta Mills, the alewives have returned, the star magnolias are in full bloom, and a delicate halo of yellowish green is emerging in the hardwood canopy. The arrival of Spring brings a welcome and magnificent surge of energy that speaks confidently of renewal. And not a moment too soon! So now that we are here, what is the invitation of this season?[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Spring is a really good time to initiate. What do you want to clear out, internally and externally? What would you like to see happen this year? Spring invites a new start.[/perfectpullquote]We make a plan and we begin to implement. There is, for instance, the decision to plant, and then we put the seed into the ground. Literally or metaphorically, this is what Spring is asking of us. Be assured, the energy of this season will support you in your push to begin, your desire  to engage, whether it is trying new things or making changes.Some of us may feel we just don’t have the get up and go to meet this dramatic shift after Winter, but waking up to Spring is really worth the effort! Not planting the real or metaphoric seed now has a ripple effect throughout the entire year. There may not be time for the germinated seed to mature in the full expansion of summer, or for it to ripen and be ready by Fall. So then there may not be a harvest. Without having secured a harvest, it is difficult to let go into the winter, as we are called to do. Lack of reserves undermines our ability to embrace the opportunity that Winter offers; rest and rejuvenation. So when Spring finally does come around again, is it any wonder that many feel depleted, and are challenged to marshal reserves of our own? No season is more important than any other. They are all completely interdependent, with each season having its own emphasis, voice, and requirements.[perfectpullquote align="left" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Spring’s clarion call is to begin. Coming into balance with this season, is one way to experience what health actually looks like.[/perfectpullquote]Trees are anchored by strong roots that support upward growth. They flower, leaf out, and express themselves in all their glory. This is the emphatic energy of Spring. Winds may blow, rains may pour down, but trees are irrepressible, and determined to grow upward. We too are like a tree reaching towards the sun. What do you need to help you grow right now; to fully express yourself? What has been just waiting and longing to be changed? On another note, many folks are reporting feeling anxious these days. Part of this may have to do with a political climate that is unsettled, and the confrontational way groups are relating to one another. But whatever the reason may be, this anxiety is affecting our overall communal health. Being attentive and responsive to Nature’s guidance, especially now, is deeply grounding, and can help dispel feelings of resignation.In closing, a little Spring cleaning is in order. Its time to let go of the heavier diet of winter, and replace it with a lighter one with lots of Spring bitters like dandelion greens, spinach and arugula, scallions and chives. All of these foods help cleanse the body and support Spring renewal. And last but not least, what a wonderful time to rise early and take a walk, being nourished by the promise of this season.____________________Susan Weiser Mason has been practicing Traditional Acupuncture in Midcoast Maine for twenty seven years. Susan earned a Master's of Acupuncture degree from the Traditional Acupuncture Institute (now called Maryland University of Integrative Health). In 1986, she opened her Traditional Acupuncture private practice in Bath, Maine and moved to Nobleboro in 1989. She earned an advanced degree from the College for Traditional Acupuncture in England in 1989. Susan served on the board of the Maine Association for Acupuncture and Oriental Medicine for many years and was involved in drafting the Maine Acupuncture Law in 1990. Since 1998, she has served on the teaching faculty of the Academy for Five Element Acupuncture in Gainsville, Florida. Learn more about her on her website here.  

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Karuna-Sindhu: Oceans of Compassion

At the heart of our own humanity is our ability to be sensitive to the feelings of others. When—upon seeing others suffering—we feel our own heart ache, and reach out to soothe their pain, we are living up to our highest human potential. This kindness, as I understand it, is compassion in action: the unsupportable urge to relieve another of their wounds.When I reminisce on my life, the regret that makes my stomach churn the most is that of not having treated others with more kindness. But regrets cripple compassion. So, instead of wallowing in them, I make a conscious, daily effort to use my old regrets as inspiration to be kinder today. Sometimes this warrants summoning the compassion goddess within me.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]The quality of compassion was so revered by ancient eastern traditions, that they gave it divine status, ascribing it to merciful goddesses who ferried souls from states of suffering into states of enlightenment. From Sri Radha to Kuan Yin, Hindu and Buddhist texts alike, consider most worthy of worship those who hear and respond to our cries.[/perfectpullquote]But what happens when our own cries are so loud that we become irresponsive to the cries of others? It’s not uncommon for our own compassion to falter when we ourselves are struggling. Suffering can overwhelm us to the point that we disconnect from our own kind nature.  Sanskrit texts refer to this phenomenon as the impossibility of a drowning person to rescue another drowning person.Compassion then enters as one who has transcended the sea that drowns us, and descends from above. The Buddhist tradition depicts such a compassionate one as Avalokitesvara, or “that lord, or ruler who gazes down upon the world”. For looking upon the suffering of this world with compassion is inseparable from successful lordship or governance. Leaders, or guides in our lives, that can elevate us past feelings of anger, fear and anxiety inspire us to move toward the best versions of ourselves: owners of compassionate hearts.Cultures that cultivate karuna, or compassion, thrive. This includes extending compassion toward animals as well. This is one of the basic tenets of Eastern traditions. Compassion becomes like nourishment for society. It is easy to feel compassion for an orphaned child, a homeless person, or a little bird that has fallen out of a nest. Our hearts are tested, however, when life invites us to extend compassion even toward those who may be hurting us, or others. What does this kind of compassion look like?The form compassion takes in each of our lives differs from person to person. For me it begins with trying not to take the aggressions of others personally. I find that when I do, I may slip into the very feelings that are fueling oncoming attacks.Deep hurts can all too easily move into anger. People who are hurting all too often become hurtful. In becoming sensitive to my own wounds and those of others (and whatever triggers them), I more readily access the compassion in my own heart.In the Jain tradition, compassion is regarded as one of the “four reflections” of universal friendship, as there is no hope of cultivating true friendships, without the ability to empathize and feel compassion toward others. Compassion thus becomes a sturdy bridge between hearts. Even two wounded hearts.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]When we surround ourselves with those in whose presence we feel heard, kindly treated, and most loved, we are extending compassion toward ourselves. Within compassionate communities everyone feels safe, respected and honored. Such sangas become the backbone of nations in which love reigns supreme.[/perfectpullquote]In the Bhakti yoga tradition, those who spontaneously give rise to such sangas are seen are valuable leaders, teachers or gurus. Such inspiring people are referred to as karuna-sindhu, or “oceans of compassion”, for their sensitivity toward others never expires. In meditating on extending compassion outward into the world— that is as deep and broad as the sea—we’ll find ourselves effortlessly connecting with our own compassionate heart. Only when we allow ourselves to be governed by thoughts, words and behavior that flows from this sea of compassion, will our world be at peace. I find comfort in knowing there are such souls on this planet

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Finding Our Souls in a Sea of Identities

Finding Our Souls in a Sea of Identities 

Krishna Kanta Dasi

In the Bhakti paradigm, at our deepest level, we are each individual units of consciousness (atmans) trying on different identities, lifetime after lifetime. The minute we are born, we are given specific identities involving race, nationality, gender and family. As we age, individuate from our parents, and cultivate our own set of beliefs, we begin to shed old identity-constructs, and/or add on to them. This sense of self, or ahamkara, changes and becomes more sophisticated as we develop.In Sanskrit ahamkara means “I am acting” according to so many temporary roles. Rich and colorful factors related to our upbringings, biology, environments and cultures all come into play when shaping the individual roles we play, the persons we see ourselves as. Because we each “contain multitudes”—as poet Walt Whitman once put it—it is always fascinating to hear others describe themselves.“Who are you?” is a loaded question indeed, sometimes requiring a complex reply! After all, we are so many things to so many people. For example, in this world I am a daughter, sister, mother, wife and neighbor. I am also a student, teacher, doll-maker, vegan, homeowner, naturalist and an artist. I am also multi-ethnic, bilingual, and a resident of U.S.A. I can continue defining myself ad nauseam—as most of us can—for we wear our identities in layers. Some layers are worn very deliberately, while others are a product of our circumstances and conditioning. Some run shallow, like waves, and others seems as deep as the sea. Eventually, as we develop our sense-of-self, parts of our identity will emerge that we may feel very committed to—perhaps like being a vegan—and others that we may be more flexible about—like our specific beliefs about the afterlife.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Those who have embarked upon a spiritual journey are often characterized as feeling unsatisfied with superficial identity constructs.[/perfectpullquote]We may feel that none of the ways in which we present ourselves on the outside, match the person we feel ourselves to be on the inside. Naturally, we are drawn to exploring new definitions for ourselves. Such identity explorations may stretch even beyond culture and religion, all the way into race, gender and species. Some individuals even like to think of themselves as being from other planets! This is a perfectly natural phenomenon experienced by embodied atmans all around the world and throughout time.We are all searching for an unshakable identity that does not depend on fluctuating externals. If everything we identify with in this world were taken from us—our family, our career, our community, etc—would we feel as if we have also lost our selves?This is what happened to Arjuna at the start of the Bhagavad Gita. Everything he previously identified himself with—his relatives, his warrior status, the kingdom—began to crumble before him. He then felt completely lost. Many of us can relate to the experience of an existential crisis. Although our core self, or atman, remains in tact, we nevertheless feel lost due to our shaky connection with it, and our human habit to revolve our sense-of-self around fleeting aspects of existence.From the Bhakti perspective, we began collecting impermanent identities before we were even born! Our souls have been cycling around in the circle of samsara for ions, reincarnating into different races, nationalities, genders and species. Our consciousness is like a container that holds all of these combined experiences, influencing the ways in which we define ourselves today. While it is easy to make intellectual assertions like “I am atman. I am a spark of God’s splendor”, behaving in a manner that reflects this ancient truth can take lifetimes of practice.[perfectpullquote align="full" cite="" link="" color="" class="" size=""]Bhakti Yoga is the practice through which we cultivate a sturdy connection with our core self, our atman. The atman is made up of sat (eternal being), chit (pure awareness) and ananda (deepest joy): the same inextinguishable ingredients that make up Divinity only in smaller quantities.[/perfectpullquote]Our experience of this core self increases as our connection with the Supreme Divine, Krishna, also increases. The deeper we enter into our relationship with Krishna, the more we begin to reciprocate the love he has for us. We practice doing this here, in this world, within the many roles we play in our daily lives. Denying these roles in the name of identifying only as sat-chit-ananda, ultimately makes us insensitive to the world we are—undeniably—still a part of.All the ways in which we define ourselves in this world—as temporary as they may be—have the potential to enter into our practice of Bhakti, and act as signposts to our deepest self. In Bhakti Yoga, we do not reject the world around us, prematurely renouncing it and the ways in which we define ourselves within it. Instead—as Krishna suggested to Arjuna—we give ourselves wholeheartedly to those external roles, while internally focused on the ways in which they will help illuminate our permanent role, our inextinguishable identity: our eternal role as beloveds of Krishna, devoted to reciprocating his divine love for us.When we focus on the love God has for us, and the love he would like to see flowing between us—while simultaneously honoring the fleeting roles given to us in our lives—we are cultivating a balanced Bhakti Yoga practice: one that is in harmony with life around us.As Krishna cautioned Arjuna, early in the Gita: “What will repression accomplish?” Hastily denying our own humanity, will not jumpstart our connection with Divinity.In fact, it may very well do just the opposite. The only way to liberate ourselves from the human experience is to go through it, while remaining conscious of God’s love for us. Arjuna did not run off the battlefield in the Gita. Instead, he participated in it, with his mind focused on Krishna, his heart set on love.Loving exchanges that awaken our love for Krishna are at the heart of the Bhakti tradition. When our sense-of-self—our identities—revolve around facilitating and participating in such loving exchanges, our practice will thrive. This does not happen in isolation. It happens when we interact with other people. One of the ways in which we can be most helpful to others while sharing Bhakti Yoga is to be sensitive to them: to really hear them, see them, and respond to whom they identify as the most. This fosters deep, heart-to-heart dialogue: the kind Krishna shared with Arjuna.Acknowledging our “multitudes”—the many roles we play as humans—in the context of a Bhakti Yoga practice, nourishes dynamic relationships with our atmans. The two are quite interrelated, perhaps more intimately than we think. It is counterproductive to see them as disconnected from each other. For this reason, when we share Bhakti with others in ways that harmonize with the situations souls find themselves in today—as Krishna did with Arjuna in the Gita—we honor their individual soul’s journey. In doing so, we honor them, thus increasing their receptivity to Bhakti. This type of sensitivity to others is critical to cultivating love in our hearts: both for our fellow humans, as well as for Divinity.  

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Enlightening Dark Leaderships

Enlightening Dark Leaderships:(Reflections for Lord Narasimhadeva’s Appearance Day)Krishna Kanta Dasi

The Bhakti tradition is full of references to power and the misuse of power. It describes the age we live in (kali yuga) as the dark age of discord and hypocrisy, governed by unjust, spiritually blind leaders. According to the ancient text of the Bhagavat Purana, when the domination of dark rulers becomes excessive, it is the love within the hearts of Bhakti Yoga practitioners that will summon the counterforce to defeat it.This Friday, April 28th, the Bhakti tradition honors one such devotee by the name of Prahlad, whose love for God was so grand it displaced the most tyrannical, evil king at the time: his own father, Hiranyakashipu.In the seventh canto of the Bhagavat Purana, Hiranyakashipu’s abusive governance is described as causing the whole universe to shake in fear. All, that is, except for Prahlad, who pours his heart into chanting the Holy Names of Krishna instead. Then, in a dramatic display of protective love for his dear devotee, Divinity himself descends as a fierce half-man, half lion, by the name of Narasimhadeva, to obliterate the cruel ruler’s brutal power and restore the peace of the citizens.It is easy to feel helpless under governance we may not agree with. When the values of political leaders around us reflect the age of kali, even the most faithful among us can become depressed and discouraged. Not all of us will dive into the chanting of the Holy Names with the same vigor and faith that Prahlad always had. In fact, this was the case for Arjuna, the protagonist in the Bhagavad Gita. Having felt pressured to fight in a war for a government he didn’t trust, Arjuna became overwhelmed with feelings of helplessness and despondence. Agonizing over how he might prevent the battle from happening, Arjuna felt utterly powerless.What is power? There are many words for power in Sanskrit, the language of the Gita. One of them is vibhuti. “Bhuti” relates to oneself and “vi” relates to expression, indicating that power rests in the pure expression of the self. When we are connected to our core and are expressing ourselves from that inner source of peace, safety and happiness—as Prahlad was—we are no longer intent on controlling what is happening around us. We are also able to express ourselves more authentically, instead of having our expressions colored by our fears, conditionings, false beliefs, etc. The more intent someone is on controlling the people or environment around them (as Hiranyakashipu was), the more influenced they are by their own insecurities. The practice of Bhakti Yoga reconnects us with our own source of inner power.True power, therefore, is giving up the need to control what happens on our outside, to feel happy on the inside. Prahlad shows us the easiest way to connect with our own inner source of happiness: calling on Krishna, or chanting his Holy Names. This chanting is like a conversation between our hearts and God’s divine heart. In the Bhagavad Gita, this conversation between the soul and Divinity occurs in person between Arjuna and Krishna. In chapter thirteen Krishna informs Arjuna that he will help him come in touch with his own powers by acquiring knowledge of “the field”, or the kshetra.The “field” is our body and everything connected to our body, including our senses, our thoughts, our feelings, desires, etc and all the transformations they go through. Familiarizing our self with everything that creates this “field,” and being able to distinguish it from the “knower of the field” at our core, (or our self, our atman) is most empowering.The word kshetra also works as a double entendre in the Gita, indicating the field of battles that happen all around us, from battles between our family members, to political battles between rulers. So, the less overwhelmed we become with the conflicts around us (and within us), the more clearly we’ll be able to perceive them. In Bhakti Yoga we cultivate peaceful clarity of vision that is not clouded by worldly or bodily designations. Yet this can be hard to do when dark and light forces are swirling all around us, and within us!The second line in the Gita, dharma-kshetre kuru-kshetre, emphasizes this tension between the light (dharma) and dark (Kuru) forces. The very first word in the Gita means “powerful ruler”: Dhritarasthra. Yet this ruler is blind—both literally and figuratively—for he seeks power in what he can control around him, instead of within him.Consequently, Dhritarasthra’s greed and envy culminates in an impending battle between his family members. Rather then loving one another, they stand opposite each other, with full battalions behind them, ready to violently tear each other apart. This brutal forcefulness weighs down on Arjuna’s heart most heavily as he sees loved ones on either sides of the battlefield.This parallel between family discord and global warfare not only characterizes the age of darkness we inhabit, but points to the battles in our own hearts. Krishna gently informs Arjuna that until he willingly faces the conflicts in his own heart he won’t be able to have a significant impact on his battling family members, and the world around him. For peace does indeed begin first with ourselves, and—as we see with Prahlad—chanting the Holy Names of God opens our hearts up to the light that will scare out the darkness of this age, the way Lord Narasimhadeva annihilated Hiranyakashipu.In chapter eleven of the Bhagavad Gita, Lord Krishna reveals a similar display of his own supreme power to Arjuna in his virat rupa, or Universal Form. Although in Abrahamic traditions God’s supreme might—however ferocious—is held in great awe and reverence, the devotees of Krishna, prefer relating to God’s gentle sweetness. For this reason, both Krishna and Narasimhadeva are requested by Arjuna and Prahlad to hide their fearsome forms, replacing their vicious fangs with loving smiles, and their weapon-wielding arms with arms opening for an embrace. For in Bhakti Yoga, God’s love is emphasized over his fearsomeness.In the Bhagavat Purana’s canto seven, chapter nine, Prahlad recites beautiful poetic praise to Lord Narasimhadeva that is filled with many of the same illuminations that Krishna shares with Arjuna in the Bhagavad Gita. Prahlad’s story teaches us that darkness is driven out through love. And that true love, by definition, is not coerced. It is not given on demand or through threats, and it certainly can’t be gained by violence. For even while tortured, Prahlad’s heart remained loyal to the Supreme Divine. His was a truly extraordinary faithfulness powerful enough to drawn down God himself!Though we may feel insignificant in our own faith and love in comparison to Prahlad, he left us the formula to feel empowered: the chanting of the Holy Names. For in spite of us, this loving chanting will shine light into our hearts, dispelling the darkness within us, and, even holding the capacity to enlighten the dark leaderships in our world. Such is the power of chanting: the most essential Bhakti Yoga practice for this age of kali.  May we make this our meditation as we sing to Lord Narasimhadeva this Friday!

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Transcending Our Surroundings Through Love

Transcending Our Surroundings Through LoveKrishna Kanta Dasi

Whether we live in urban or rural settings, it is natural for the world around us—and those with whom we share our world—to affect us. We would hardly be human if they didn’t! We are, after all, interdependent with our environments. Therefore, an inevitable part of our very existence is to absorb the impact of our surroundings. Sometimes, what we absorb on a daily basis can overwhelm us.The same thing happened to Arjuna—the protagonist in the Bhagavad Gita—when he found himself in the midst of political tension, leading to war: Arjuna became depressed by the discouraging atmosphere surrounding him. Krishna then invited Arjuna to carefully observe the ways in which he was reacting to his surroundings. It’s an invitation that this great yoga text extends to each of us: how do we react, or respond, to life around us? Do we enter into a dialogue with the world that nourishes our yoga practice, or starves it?According to yoga philosophy, everything we encounter in this world—from human behavior, to places and events—is characterized by one of three primordial energies, or gunas, which permeate the entire physical universe. Amazingly, these ancient observations resonate with modern discoveries by quantum physicists. They study the way cosmic energy vibrates from slower to faster frequencies, and how these vibrations affect our consciousness.Denser vibrations lead to a denser, or darker consciousness: what the Gita calls, tamas. Surrounding ourselves with places, people or things that vibrate primarily with lethargic, tamasic energy will leave us feeling discouraged and uninspired in yoga.Lighter vibrations lead to a more illuminated, or sattvic, consciousness. Sattvic surroundings and company have a delightfully uplifting effect on us that is most conducive to a rewarding yoga practice.Finally, the middle category is called rajas, and according to the Gita, it perpetuates a cyclical stagnation, which can feel very productive to us, but ultimately just takes us in circles, wasting our time.When Krishna describes one who is absorbed in yoga, he characterizes such a person as having “the nature of sattva” in chapter seventeen. Then, to further emphasize this to Arjuna, Krishna connects an “undisturbed practice of yoga” to one who is determined. This determination, Krishna tells us, is also “of the nature of sattva”. In our yoga practice, it manifests specifically as steadying our mind, our breath, and our senses.Our senses are the channels through which we take in the raw world around us. The mind is the filter through which we interpret every one of our sensorial experiences. And the breath is the reflector of how these experiences impact us on an emotional level. When we are determined to have all these three (the mind, the senses, and the breath) work together harmoniously to enhance our yoga practice, we are benefiting ourselves with the sattvic energy available to us in the world.In surrounding ourselves with places, people and things that all vibrate the quality of sattva, we nourish our yoga practice. Their uplifting influence is invaluable, especially in times of unrest and disillusionment.  As we become more and more aware of the predominating energies in our lives—permeating the places we visit, the relationships we participate in, the food we ingest, the music we listen to, etc— we will feel more and more determined to frequent the energies that support us, and let go of the ones that don’t. Krishna calls this “the yoga of discernment”. It involves a kind of surrender.Anytime we let go of something that previously had a firm grip on us—whether it was a relationship, a rigid political stance, a destructive habit, etc—we are exercising surrender. Practicing the yoga of discernment requires surrendering old parts of ourselves, as we can become terribly attached—and even addicted—to the very things that destroy us. Instead of allowing ourselves to be swept up by surrounding rajasic and tamasic energies that will erode our yoga practice, in surrendering, we seek out the sattvic.As the Gita ends, we see Arjuna surrendering his anxiousness and despair about the rajasic political tension around him. His mind takes on a calm, sattvic quality instead. Then, drawing from the power of yoga, Arjuna is able to turn his depressing surroundings into fuel for his practice. He didn’t do this by becoming apathetic to his surroundings, or pretending that they did not affect him. Instead, Arjuna peacefully engaged with the chaos around him by turning to his best friend (and ours!), Krishna, who advised him to act out of love. This is Bhakti yoga: a consciousness even higher than sattva.When Arjuna asked Krishna in chapter 14 of the Gita, how to overcome, or “transcend” the negative impact of the unrest around him, Krishna’s response was: “with the yoga of offering love”. In short, when the world around us begins to feel overwhelming, practitioners of Bhakti yoga focus on cultivating more love. For even in moments of political unrest, we can—as Arjuna did—always find ways to nourish the love within us, the love between us, and the love all around us!


Urban Devi is absolutely delighted to introduce our new contributing author, Krishna Kanta Dasi.Krishna Kanta Dasi has been an active practitioner and student in the Bhakti Yoga tradition since 1986, later receiving Brahmin initiation in India. She has served as a contributing editor for Integral Yoga Magazine, and her writings have appeared in Back to Godhead, The Tattooed Buddha, The Interfaith Observer, Mantra, Yoga & Health, etc.Krishna Kanta is the founder of The Vaishnavi Voices Poetry Project (follow on Facebook) dedicated to honoring and inspiring the voices of women in the Bhakti tradition. She is editor of Bhakti Blossoms: A Collection of Contemporary Vaishnavi Poetry  (Golden Dragonfly Press, 2017).

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